college

so. college.
i know the vision, the purpose, the "why" we are made to do (most) of the things we do.
the assignments, readings, projects, papers, research
but...the time?
thats what makes me question "why"?
when average life expectancy is 80 years, barely enough time to test drive this experience we call "life", why do we spend 4 (or 5) years of it in this place which makes us so busy thinking that we often forget to think?
so consumed with the technicalities of writing that we would never turn to it as a pasttime? or put soulful passion into cranking out 9 pages, double-spaced?
so daunted by the 75 pages of nightly reading for 3 combined classes that the thought of reading for pleasure exhausts us?
so scheduled with the perfect academic-extracurricular load that the prospect of diversion tempts, haunts, and terrifies us,
so driven are we to maintain pristine time management
so compartmentalized are we that after the scheduled time for cultural discerning, for church, for bible study, philosophy, art history, sociology- after the period passed it's back to your regularly scheduled program, what's next on the schedule?
i leave my cultural discerner meeting, having debated modernism, post-modernism, pop culture, church rhetoric...i want to simply sit and work through it, maybe with a friend to bounce ideas off of, but neither me nor my companion has the luxury of the hours. we must scurry on to the homework for tomorrow, and it is already nearly midnight. oh well. put it away for ome other time.
but what happens if these things keep being "put away" for "another time"?
to me that sounds like it could be detrimental, to myself and others, on many levels.
college.
i get the concept, but in reality it more often seems to get in the way of dynamic, electrifying, readily-applicable learning.
...besides digging most of us into a financial gaping maw.
that's the added bonus.

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