raving

WATCHING:

The Talented Mr. Ripley. yes, i know, this movie is a bit old. i kept saying to myself "why haven't i watched this countless times before now"? it was genius! beautiful men- matt damon and jude law. matchless acting. gwenyth paltrow- a gem! and the plot just kept twisting and twisting. i thought it a bit draggy towards the end, and could definitely have used a bit more closure, but still- i'm infatuated.

mmm-hm! and let me tell you, modern men would do well to take style tips from this film, period piece that is it. the relaxed slacks, cuffed at the hem, the dress shoes, nice oxfords, jude law "dickie"'s trademark black hat that has become so popular with the rock-n-roll scene of late...and all thw while pushing the homosexual agenda in a sly, artful, diabolical way, appealing to all within us that longs for the chic and fabulous eurpean lifestyle. bravo, hollywood. but really, i loved it.

finally finished

READING:

"tweak: my life on methamphetamines" by nic sheff (the man in photo, above)
yes, i am very often attracted to dark and twisty. yes, this book was as tragic as memoirs get. but, you know, i always think but for the grace of God, there go i. it keeps me grounded. keeps me occupied with so much to pray over. this book was well-written, with great visual details. even though sheff tried to break up the drudgery with wistful flashbacks of a privileged, if unconventional, childhood, i still had to rotate this book with a few others (i almost never read a book exclusively, straight through) to keep my spirits up. i did not enjoy this book as much as the last memoir i read, or the one before that, but i still highly recommend it.

fall 08

who reads a blog without pictures?
some of my latest favored looks for fall 08

gucci:

i'm attracted to all the black, the hippie and rock-n-roll references, military jacket, ethnic prints in subdued colors, and fur.

stella mccartney:

black, again, i love the gentle tulip-shaped skirt, and check out the rich detail in that top! also, the box handbag.

wunderkind:

the lumberjack plaid in the top look just sends me thinking about a warm cozy shirt and a cup of hot cocoa. winter is admittedly my least favorite season but going to school in michigan has me constantly on the lookout for cold-weather items. again, notice the adorable military jacket suit and the grey and black.

all images courtesy of style.com

breakfast smoothie

Breakfast Smoothie #2

1/3 frozen banana
approx. 2/3 c. soymilk
1 tsp. sugarfree maple syrup
1/2 scoop vanilla protein powder
1/2 scoop chocolate fiber powder
1 large tsp all-natural chunky peanut butter
2 ice cubes

Blend all ingredients till smooth. Sprinkle with favorite granola or cereal.

was i just meant to be surrounded by the golden halo of blonde
the crimson swiftly passing
never to become that vixen of a dark brunette shade
that earthy grounded wild rock-n-roll coating of luscious cocoa-molasses dreams?

sorry i suffer from acute ramblings and paranoid introspectiveness

moving on
i have very mixed feelings about going back to college in michigan
i am praying for the Lord's direction and assurance

not so great

i am just feeling really poorly about my body this evening
i feel like i have absolutely no self-control with food
i feel like no amount of working out will do any good
i feel like no matter how hard i work, i will never be a match for genetics, social conditioning, and aging
how lame is that?

...

i keep wondering
what was i doing in years past that "worked"?
will i always feel like i'm going crazy?
what did stars, and even normal women, do in decades past, like the 40's and 50's, before the workout craze?

she suspected sometimes he did things because he felt sorry for her
what could she expect
she has one leg
placate her with a sweet treat
one kindness for years of mistreatment
he put her down
put her in her place
"i was doing something about it

until you interfered"
now she is
crushed
under the weight of obligation, unchangeable circumstances, monumental longsuffering
she tries hard not to cry when i come to her
and say
"i know you're upset..."

extra! extra!

see, it was really just the kindness of my heart that led to my untimely demise. i was baking pre-shaped cookies (a sin of the baking industry, if you ask me) for my family, and there was this runt. i mean, it barely survived the baking-sheet-to-cooling-cloth sojourn, and it lay there limply, nearly torn in two. it beckoned to me with its ooey-gooey center and just-crisped edges. and then, after a pregnant eternity...i gave in. i ate a whole cookie. and while most of you are out there rolling your eyes and such, those who know me know how monumental this is. i even poured a little glass of soymilk. i don;t even know how long it's been since i've eaten a whole cookie. i'll spare you the nutritional facts that i couldn't resist peeking at. this is the fall of the berlin wall. this is sliced bread. this is hiroshima. (ok, well, maybe not...you get the point)

EATING:

confession: i taste-test way too much while cooking. it's like i've had half a meal by the time i'm done cooking the meal

that aside, this afternoon's endeavors yielded a lovely saladita with corn, black beans, and cilantro, a wonderful portbello mushroom curry, and a big bowl of mixed salad, for which i highly recommend annie's organic brand balsamic vinaigrette or lite raspberry vinaigrette.

right now i am enjoying a dessert of a (diet) all-natural root beer float made with homemade french vanilla soy ice cream. (and rainbow sprinkles!)

INSPIRED:


"haunt me" blog
http://stringbeanjean.blogspot.com/
truly memorable
i like her writing