Jungle and Telephone Poles

20100428

searching for some answers

i want difficult in a way i haven't encountered before

i want to be inspired

i want people to do what they say they will, when they say they will

i want this time to pass

i can't shake this headache

20100422

well, i haven't been here in awhile

it's been all papers and projects and no sleep

that time of year

i still feel stuck

but oregon is coming

probably all too soon

i'm dangerously pinning many hopes on the semester

seeing as how now, i'm supposed to be in the most engaging classes of my major, and i couldn't be more disinterested or bored

i decided

if i was to do it over

i'd say fuck it (what's practicality in this economy anyways?)

i'd study photography and philosophy

i guess sometimes it takes all four years to see where you should have gone at the start

maybe that's what i'm getting out of all of this

i don't know

20100413

haha

busy busy busy busy busy

but i love this

the selby

source

20100402

i've cooked and baked

here's a pretty plating from a few days ago. i've got beet hummus on the right, and cilantro pesto on the right. both of these were blender-intensive, but definitely worth the results!

recipes here and here.

a delicious close-up of that hummus

here's the first stage of the cheesecake i made last weekend. the idea came to me one day: pear and salted caramel combination. a winner, for sure. so this is the crust and pear layer.

so now i've added the cheesecake and more pears and caramel on top.

fresh out of the oven. so, so good.

today was the most wonderful day. biking all over town, breezes and sunshine, open windows, friends and shared meals and thrift store trips. can't i just press repeat?

20100327

what mood is this

i can say there's been not a small bit of yelling, lots of cooking, lots of lazy hours, and lots of thinking.

certainly not enough sleep or homework.

some strange kind of spring break.

also, i wrote my first song. it begins:

"I've been staring so much but not really seeing/

The words flow through me but I know I'm not reading"

happy weekend

20100322

articulation?

(photos are hedi slimane and garance dore)

i know i'm off my posting schedule.

i've had one hell of a rollercoaster birthday weekend, full of drama but also great moments.

i've washed it all off,

and i'm moving forward.

hello to my 20th year.

20100313

actually, i really liked it. i'd heard so much about it before i saw it, and i was expecting it to be much scarier. it is seriously graphic and contains a lot of rough material that not everyone can handle. but i did not feel like the graphic scenes were gratuitous.

i loved charlotte gainsbourg and willem dafoe's on-screen chemistry. they are both beautiful in their own strange, raw sort of way. i was going to see the film anyways because i have a huge girl-crush on charlotte gainsbourg. i can admit it. i loved the dreamy scenes where she is visualizing herself in the woods. i loved the opera in the beginning and the end. without giving too much away, i loved the core of the plot- how she is studying the persecution of women, who are seen to be inherently evil, and...she ends up believing and embodying what she had been critiquing. adam and eve, garden of eden imagery abounds...it;s not your typical torture/horror film. not at all.

what i didn't love: the talking fox? seriously? and the scene at the end when he looks back over his shoulder and the 3 beggar animals are sitting there watching him, shimmering like obi-wan kenobi and yoda? i laughed out loud. but besides that, it was solid. the women in the tree trunks- genius.

i haven't read many real reviews, but here's the rottentomatoes link. looks like it's all very mixed feelings.

(all photos from google image search)